I'm having many inner conflicts right now. I think I'm going through a depression again... I know I ended a long term depression when school got out... and then I started on one right after Fanime... I'm assuming this is the same one... erm, it started fading for awhile and I was somewhat happy for the end of June... but ever since July started I've been one giant mental wreck.
I've... really never felt so confused in my life... I have so many different emotions I'm going through and I have NOBODY to talk to. I mean, I know people on here give me support and shit... and that is nice and all... but there are certain people... I
need and they aren't... uh... around anymore...
Swimming ending... fear of losing a purpose... losing something so important to me for years and years - even longer than high school... the stress of trying to be faster and running out of time....
.... this sinking feeling... this anger... these... desires... no way to get back at them.... hopelessness, helplessness... being in love...
...can I? Be in love with two people? Is it selfish...? I suppose both of them are... dying loves... one person hurts me so much mentally... the other.... the memories... and the longings... not being able to get close... nowhere close... can't even... see them....
and then... he... he likes another girl.... so I guess I went off and did the same thing... but I don't have anybody ... so he shouldn't... he shouldn't do that.
And my sex crazy co workers... telling me he wants to move on cause he just wants to get laid.. and stupid men. I hate stupid men... or maybe I just want to? I don't even know... men and women alike seem to make me cry... maybe I should just be asexual...
.... I'm not PMSing or anything... but I've been crying so hard... I want somebody to fall in love with me and hold me when I'm crying... or be a best friend maybe... or just... make me smile... for long periods of time...
I'm selfish, because I want to be happy. I stress people out because of this... but... it's not fair.... so much wasted energy.... I wanted you when you didn't even know you were wanted...
I hate unrequited love. And why must all good things come to an end? The only happiness I could find during the school year... she's so far away... and then the only happiness I could find during the summer.... it's going away too... and I'm... sad... and I have so many longings...
...
I'm done.
Slots:1.

(KK and Max)
2.

(Clock) (waiting for reference)
3.

(Finished:
[link])
4.

(tentacle rape) (collab.)
5.

(OtogixMalik)
6.

(YuugixMokuba)
FULL FOR NOW But go ahead and make a request if you have one and I'll give you a slot once I finish some of those. <3 Probably.
You guys are all awesome. And make me feel happy and stuff.


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Devious Comments
That made my day. For some reason. :B
And I don't. But I suppose in the dream world I might. XD; Mwuahha my dream self is stalking joo.
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
I found this really rare Jounouchi figurine in a store (which doesn't really exist D: ), but it was really expensive, so I didn't buy it.
But then the next day I had a package, and the Jou figurine was it o.O And it was from you. And you'd called my house too and left a message letting me know who it was from.
But I had no idea how you'd have known my address or phone number xD.
It was weeeeiiiird~
and as said, the cosplays are way to cool! XD
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My mind is as open as i choose to let it be.
I choose to understand things before judging
Ask me before you judge me, know me before you scorn me.
All i ask in life is that we live it to the fullest, never give up or look back ; )
WATCH IT! it haunts my dreams :B
I really appreciate the support.
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
Enh, in my opinion everybody is a puppyshipper, puzzleshipper or a tendershipping. IT'S ANNOYING. D:< I hate all that mainstream stuff - BUT THERE IS MORE BRONZESHIPPING THAN IRATESHIPPING SO NO COMPLAINING! 8D;;;;
D: Yes he was. And then he gets fugly in Duelist Kingdom and starts looking good again after that.... But it's not the same... :/
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
Aww. Well, I hope she liked it.
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
HOMG IT GETS IN THE WAY WITH THE GHEY!?!!!121L3IRU2O3U!!!,
it just doesn't make any fucking sense
and it's fans annoy the hell out of me.
._.
I can't STAND puzzleshipping, since it makes up more than
half the fandom, and all the good fics come
from it. Where's my bronzeshipping art, huh, huh!?
Jounouchi only has personality in Season O.
Wavy hair = personality
And he was so fucking hot in the first manga.
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I like boys with
pretty faces and have the
emotional stability of a
teenage girl.
I am a love slave. I have many masters. I SHOW LOVE TO THEM BY HINTING AT THEIR EXISTANCE IN MY SIGNATURE.
I hart you, bitches.
she actually left a comment on that piece x:
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.sexually violent.oh noez.
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
yea..that was made for a girl i like ">w<
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.sexually violent.oh noez.
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
happy belated birthday! :0 *points to your journal*
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.sexually violent.oh noez.
But yea, I don't care for Puzzleshipping, but I don't hate it... and Puppyshipping is crap.... Prideshipping is annoying.... but other than that I think I'm okay with most pairings... :/
Jou has a personality.... *whimpers and cries* ...a good personality for getting raped by bad guys... because he squirms a lot.... ._.;
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
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Much thanks to *coycoy for the avvie!
Remember to check out the rest of my stamp collection; there might be others you like, so feel free to drop by whenever! ^w^
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♥[ĸ e z z ı]; THE TOXiC KiTTY ◕ ◡ ◕
Stamps ♥ Crafts ♥ CSS ♥ Photography
AND THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD HATE MALIK BECAUSE
THE ONLY PERSON HE SHOULD BE WITH IS MARIKU!
BUT I HATE PUPPYSHIPPING TOO!!!!!!!
AND PUZZLESHIPPING!!!!
GET THAT CRAP OUT OF MY FACE!!!
I ONLY LOOK AT PUZZLESHIPPING AND PUPPYSHIPPING WHEN I WANT
TO PURGE!!
JOUNOUCHI IS TOO BUSY NOT HAVING A
PERSONALITY TO BE STOLEN.
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I like boys with
pretty faces and have the
emotional stability of a
teenage girl.
I am a love slave. I have many masters. I SHOW LOVE TO THEM BY HINTING AT THEIR EXISTANCE IN MY SIGNATURE.
I hart you, bitches.
Maybe you're just dragging yourself down. Quicksand is quick. At least that's the thing with me, sometimes I spend too much time thinking and that results in nothing good. >_>
I love every life story! There are soooo many people on earth and I only know a sooooo small part of them. Every person, every face you pass on the street, has a whole life story to tell you. I guess all together are the real neverending story.
Take care!
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The scars on our hearts
are our identity cards
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
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Much thanks to *coycoy for the avvie!
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
Being lazy is fun, though. XD And yay. 83 I've been dying to see some of her work. D:
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Much thanks to *coycoy for the avvie!
Haha, mmkay. I'm almost done. I'm just lazy lately... and I've been out and stuff.Oh and Nicole gave me a few of her drawings for me to scan this week. So yay, finally gonna get some of her art up.
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"Unable to express the sadness of your parting
Darkness without end.
You come to me in a dream.
I am flooded by thoughts of what should have been.
But I find it here, with you, goddess of my heart.
A sudden sob wakes me from my dream.
Alone again."
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